Tuesday, August 2, 2011


Hello My Dear Friends

May i ask you something. Have you ever had a guy who at the time meant the world to you. You couldn't wait to talk to them. Go to sleep dreaming of them and wake up think about them? Hold your breath at the first hello.
Then have them turn into a monster. Abuse you. Hurt you. Burn you and brake you. Lie to you.
And at first you didn't want to believe it so you stayed. Ignored the bad and remembered the good. 
Did you ignore is more then once? Thinking of only the beginning.
Did you finally see the light? When you did, did you leave? When you left did you cry or feel broken? heart blistered? Drunk off of pain and suffering.

Did you ever stair at your phone for hours waiting for them to call?Wanting them to message you like they used to? Call you beautiful and wait for them to build you back up. Did it make you feel sick thinking about it? Thinking "After all they did how can it still love them?" Cause in all truth i still love him. Even though i hate him. I want him to hold me. Even though i want him six feet under. I want him to make my heart race. When i want his cut out and burned.

Is this normal?

Going over to a friends tomorrow. Wish me luck with fasting cause i always mess up around her. I cant bring myself to lie to her.

No pictures to day my computers being slow and i don't want to wait.